By Megan Hoogland
I'm sick, and I know why I'm sick. I was on the road for three weeks in a row and it was too much. I came home and came down with the plague as soon as I set foot in Minnesota. (I would like to say I'm allergic to this place but that would be an easy out.) This has happened before, so why do I do it? I have three kids and a shop and a house to take care of… It's a lot and I know there are a lot of us in the same boat. Then throw tattooing and all that comes with that into the mix...
Some days it feels that something has to give. In my world right now it's my health, fine… I'll slow down for a week and lay on the couch. Whether I like it or not I'm going to watch a lot of Netflix and be bored… There's my balance. Because once I get going again I'm still not going to change a thing. I love that I get to wake up with the kids at 7 a.m. (Okay, not really but I get to see them and it gets me going) and bust my ass all day to come home and play mom again 'til they go to bed and I get to answer e-mails.
So why do so many conventions? Because I get to see a lot of my friends in the same place for a whole weekend, because I'm finally busy wherever I go, but most of all because I still love what I do, and I know I'm not going to learn what I've learned on the road by sitting in my shop everyday. I'm still learning, and I learn something new at every show I go to. To me this industry is not about just tattooing, but getting to know and spending time with other artists and participating.
I'm sick of the egos in this business, sick of the scratchers, sick of the groupies on the magazine covers, and sick of being asked when I'm gonna be on TV. I choose to put my time and energy into bettering myself as a tattooist, as painful as that may be, by doing shows and guest spots, spending time with other artists that inspire me, and participating.
I feel like I'm taking a risk right now by writing this because I fear negative feedback, but to me participation in this industry is more important to me than my fears.
And speaking of fears, why do I let them get in my way so often? Thank God plane tickets are so expensive or there are many times I would have bailed on a trip early to get back in my comfort zone… And then I would miss an awesome trip from happening if I would just fucking relax...
Why do I fear criticism when it's the one thing I desire to better myself? I'll have to work on that one for a while… bottom-line right now is that I travel because I love my job. I wouldn't put myself out there if I didn't…
Megan Hoogland can be found at:
418 S. Front Street
Mankato, MN 56001 USA